witchartist

Hi Blog,
I think I finally have it figured out. I need validation for who I am. I need to be told that Im special in some way. I need that feeling of being worth something besides the gold teeth in my head. A strong sense of self-worth, thats what never really developed in the core of who I am. Ive never felt good enough, never felt like I belonged. Thats why I am so quietI didnt want to take a chance on saying anything or doing anything that would cause people to laugh at me any more than they did already (my perception anyway of what was happening). When I was a little boy, that sense of self-esteem just didnt take root. It wasnt my parents fault necessarily, just the way things worked outthey didnt know what to do (or not do) and I had no idea until now what devastating effects no self-esteem would have on my development. Wow, I guess this is what is known as a catharsis? Thanks for listening Blogand to all of you sweet, wonderful and supportive SG ladies, I love you so much my heart is always full to bursting.