Wednesday Oct 20, 2004

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I have been so freakin busy, my god! I have mentioned this from time to time, so one last time can't hurt. The girl of my dreams is coming to visit me this weekend, so I've been running around wildly trying to get my life back in order so that I can at least look like I've been keeping things right. Cleaning my house, doin laundry, paying bills, the shit like that. She really likes my being responsible. It makes her feel good about the time we share, and the future I pray for.

We had a good conversation the other night. And I finally got the truth out about why she left. It was because I am tecnically still married. And it bothered her enough that she wouldn't commit with "baggage " like that. I have been separated for two years almost, and I just never had met anyone who really cared and my procrastination really didn't seem to be affecting anyone. Not me , or my ex, or the kids. But now I have a new reason to pick up the divorce papers again. So I mentioned it to my ex, and she agreed, and then said she have her lawyer get started on it soon...SSCCRREEEEEEECH....

In the beggining, we agreed to handle this civilly, on our own, at the court house, the same way we got married. Now she's saying lawyer. My humble week of preparation has been washed away like so many leaves in the street. I am irritated beyond belief. I think pissed is a better word though...Hear I am the regular fuckin nice guy, once again getting screwed... mad mad mad

At least my weekend will be fun, I'm going to be lock up with my love, and also I'll be at that Portland Burnningman decompression event. Enough to get my mind off of the fucked up shit...
ryan:
being with someone who is technically still married is really hard. i had one boyfriend for a year who was still married. his ex lived here in portland, we lived in spokane. but even tho i knew they weren't together, it still hurt really bad. i wanted nothing more than for them to divorce. but it never happened. then wouldn't you know. we break up, he's with some rich girl a few months later and then the divorce happens. i felt really terrible, like something was wrong with me... it sucked.

sorry you have to deal with the lawyers... but when there's kids involved it's usually a good idea so no one gets fucked over, you know?

good luck and have fun with the lady.
kimmi:
Yeah. Me still being married put a lot of stress on the guy I was dating. He wouldn't admit it but I could tell. Not to mention the fact I have an infant. Luckily my husband and I already have the divorce papers filled out and things should happen soon.

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