wipis

The other night I spoke a lot of truths and got a lot of things off my chest. But man I come off as a whiny bitch. It's really not all that bad. So what if I haven't had sex. Sure sounds like the thing a hopeless person says in denial. But I've never been to France or went sky diving and I know plenty of people who have and I don't feel like I'm alone or left out. As I think most know it's not really the sex that ever makes someone upset. It's being alone. Thats why cuddle buddies are the best people in the world. Because if only for a moment we feel like we're not alone in the world.

I'm graduating soon. May 11 is my commencement. I both fear and anticipate the day. I don't want to leave school. Here I am safe and happy. I got friends who live just down the hall, I can drink and party whenever I like, I go out and learn something new everyday and I just plain don't have to deal with the real world. But I also look forward to it. I may be one of the few people who like to work. Towards the end of every semester I start to think about work and actually want to go back to waiting tables. But that won't last long. I hope to send out an new resume every week till I get something I like or at the very least tolerate. I want to be finished and have all the work I have done here to pay off. I want to be the first of my brothers to get a college degree and will likely have the highest degree of any of us. My little brother will have his associates and my older brother is a drop out. I hope he gets back to school one day.

As for my future? I want to enjoy the summer. Work my butt off and maybe earn enough money to go do something fun or crazy like goto Europe or go sky diving or drive cross country. Then maybe work on a career or start looking at graduate school. Or even join the military. Then sock some money away in the bank, get my first new car, get my own apartment, meet new people.