winnipeger

Since saturday night, I've had this furious rage built up inside me, all sqaurely directed at one person. Well, two people, really. But one of them, it doesn't surprise me from. The other...well, let's just say I had expected better of her than to fuck a 'friend' of ours in the bathroom of a bar we were at, when we were "together" in a sense. And then lie about it straight to me. I really thought adults were supposed to have their shit more together than kids.

"I've never asked for the truth, but you owe that to me"

The worst thing is...this shouldn't really bother me. i mean...she lives in New York. I'm in Winnipeg. And it happened back in March (although I just found out for sure that she was lying to me on Saturday). But I want so badly to call her up and call her out. But I know for a fact that she'll do everything in her power to avoid the conversation going in that direction, and it's a hell of a lot easier to just hang up a phone if it winds up going to a place she doesn't like. And this is too big for email.

Like I said, I should be able to let it go, but I just can't for some reason. It disgusts me that I ever thought I was as close to this person as I thought I was. And how much money I spent on trips to see her.

Oh well...at least I got to see New York out of the deal?