33 days to go until I get hitched again! I'm feeling excited that it's so close...I'm also a bit nervous. I've never had a wedding where I actually have to walk down the aisle. My first wedding we eloped at a chapel on the spur of the moment on vacation. It was not preplanned. This time my fiance and I spent a whole year planning and scheming. I think it's going to be a fantastic party and I can't wait to share it with my friends and family. I've been going through some crazy shit up until now...feeling doubtful, scared, unworthy...my man is very strong to put up with me sometimes. Then all of a sudden, it was like a switch had been turned on...I realized that I need to stop acting like an idiot and believe in him and trust in him that he loves me like he says and shows me everyday. I deserve to be treated well...the way that he treats me. 