wingsie

I am so fucking sick of being sick. I hate it. Especially while taking care of a toddler. I'm exhausted, a walking zombie if you will. And my neck is killing me as well. Last night I fell asleep feeling like my neck was on fire. After taking my cough syrup with codeine and laying down my neck starting to ache but I couldn't crack it, it felt jammed. So I just laid there and tried to will the pain away. 2 hours later my neck and entire head had this buzzing pain but it had dulled, but instead it felt hot. Hot and buzzing... not so good for falling asleep. Luckily I did fall asleep but it was more like a drug fueled coma with weird dreams, waking up a lot. Ugh. I'm ready for it to be over.

I think I'm going to cut off all my hair. I don't look that great with short hair, but I just want to buzz it off and start over. I get this feeling a lot. My husband likes long hair and wants me to grow it out, but I just feel old and dirty and want it gone. gah.