wilona

Hey guys.

How are you all?

I'm hiding out in my room trying to avoid the havoc that is being wreaked on my house by small family members.
I don't do family events all that well, and today is no different.
Neither do I like the Sun very much.
So I'm inside on my laptop watching stand up on Youtube.
Predictable, I know.

I haven't had the best day today.
It might sound petty, but my mum and I swapped wardrobes today because she wanted my nice ones to finish off her newly decorated room.
Now I have a load of cheap white furniture in my room that makes me want to cry every time I look at it, I have to unpack all my stuff again, and I've had people pissing about in my room all day so it's filthy dirty.
On top of that, I seem to be the butt of everyone's jokes today.
Every time my mother has friends over, she makes me feel about an inch tall with her bitchy / snide comments that make them all chuckle.
I, however, do not appreciate it.
It's like she's showing off in front of them, and frankly, it's fucking me off.

I haven't been in the best of moods recently, and her big mouth is not helping matters.
She's always done that though, putting me down and teasing me about things she should know I'm sensitive about.

Oh well.

I feel lately that very few people treat me with any respect.
It hurts.
But I'm trying my hardest to be the best I can be, I don't know what else the world wants from me.

I also miss feeling loved.
It's been a year and a half now that I've been single, and I'm starting to feel a bit shit about it.
It's making me question myself, and that never leads to anything good.

I'm sorry this has been such a whiney blog, I don't know what's come over me lately.

I really enjoyed seeing some of you at beach camping, it was ace
Here's to more frivolity this summer.
Love you guys.

For now, have a few recent pictures from my 365 project.

Laters alligators.
xxx
Willy