wilona

I'm losing it a little bit.
Been feeling a bit down the last few days, mainly due to the realisation that I'm alone.
Maybe I'm not, but it seems that way.

I need real life human interaction, but I'm so socially inept that I try to avoid it.
Which makes no sense seeing as I have a fairly active social life at the moment.
I guess I'm just tired of interacting with people that don't give a shit about me, people that just use me to bounce off of when they're drunk.

I wanna mean something to someone.
I used to mean something to someone, but then even he stopped loving me.
What am I doing wrong?
I was a good girlfriend.
Maybe I just end up going after the wrong guys.

I really hope someone proves to me that relationships are worth it soon.
Because right now, I'm very doubtful.
I'm scared of being alone but I'm scared of being hurt again, and hurting someone else.

I don't know which is worse.

Sad Willy.


Editied on Thursday to say:
I'm really struggling.
I'm totally out of my depth right now.