wilona

Howdy.



Um.
I'm feeling a bit weird about things today.
Yesterday I had a massive row with Alex over the phone.
He's been generally really inconsiderate and a bit of a prick lately to be honest, and it all culminated yesterday and slapped me in the face when I found out he'd been harrassing my best mate for sex, sending her creepy messages that she was actually pretty fucking freaked out about and shit like that.
I'd never get involved with any of his best friends, because you just don't do that.
Well, unless you really wanna piss someone off, right?
It's not only disrespectful to my friend, but completely inconsiderate and arsehole-esque of him.

And when I told him that I thought he was out of order, all I got was "You're a fucking slag, it's none of your business, why don't you go and get a new fucking boyfriend so maybe you'll leave me the fuck alone" etc etc, blah blah blah.

I don't want to be with him, I really don't.
But he has to understand that if he wants to stay friends he can't treat me like shit all the time.
I've put so much effort into trying to make being friends work, but every couple of weeks he'll end up shouting at me, calling me names and generally having no consideration for anyone but himself.

So yesterday after this argument I text him saying, look, obviously this isn't working, I've been bending over backwards for you and I really wanted to stay friends, but you make it too difficult. You clearly do not care about me one little bit and I really don't believe you when you say you do. I can't be friends with someone that treats me the way you do, I wouldn't stand for it with anyone else in my life and I won't stand for it with you. I don't want to see you again.

And that was that.
It's gutting, cuz I really am gonna miss him.
And as soon as I sent a long arse text to that effect, he text me complaining that he misses me and has never been happier than when we were together and that he'd do anything to have our old life back.

Complete bullshit, I reckon.
I won't let him manipulate my feelings anymore.
He's a fucking prick.

He's like poison.

So yeah that's that.
I'm gonna try and stick to it, at least not see him for a couple of months, maybe then he'll grow up a bit and learn to treat others the way he'd like to be treated himself.
Cuz me hanging around and letting him walk all over me and continuing to treat him as sweet as sugar isn't teaching him anything, it's only encouraging his behaviour.

So he can go fuck himself.

And now for some pictures
In chronological order...

I actually kinda miss my orange hair now...



Me attempting to look like a normal human being at work


Another amazing eBay purchase, another item of 7 year old boys' clothing!


Me at 3am after a big night out and my belly demanding Marmite on toast (yes I look a wreck)



And now something to turn you off and/or make you laugh:


I also meant to mention that I met the lovely Social and Miro at the tattoo convention on Saturday, and they were both big slices of awesome pie!! Looking forward to more fun times (maybe even naked :o) with these two

HOOWAY!