wilona

Hey.

Thanks for all the comments and messages, I'm slowly working my way through them at the moment now I'm feeling like my head's screwed on a (little) bit better...

I'm not killing myself.
But only because of my mum's reaction.
I couldn't do that to my family.
No matter how bad I think my life is, it wouln't be anywhere near as awful as my family's life if I killed myself.
I need to stop being so selfish.

i'm still feeling pretty shitty...
I'm trying my best, and i think the anti-depressants are starting to take effect, which is great...
But no amount of pills can heal a broken heart

I want him back so bad, but I messed up real bad and there's nothing I can do to fix it.
I love him so much and I just can't stop thinking about him.
We both hurt each other real bad, and I just want to put it all in the past and try again.
Start over, brand new, go back to the beginning, dating, cuddling, fooling around.
It breaks my heart that he won't take me back.
He says he still loves me and misses me but because of what I did he can't look at me the same way anymore.
I wish I'd never cheated on him, I wish I could turn back time.
It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time, I wanted to hurt him like he hurt me, I wanted to prove a point.
Maybe he just needs time to forgive and forget... Or maybe this is it.
I don't want this to be it.
I love him so much
And now I'm crying again.
Great.
Sigh.

Anyway...

I thought I'd try and stop being so depressing and give you a blog you actually wanted to read... But I kinda failed that, didn't I? Ergh. So anyway, here are some new pictures for y'all.

My 'Groupie' pants my mum thought were amusing so bought for me!

And this is what I look like without make-up....Yurghhh!!!

And cuz I know how much you guys love awful drunk pictures of me....Lol...

You guys rock.
Thank you for everything.

Wil
xx



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