wilona

Okay, so I feel as if I should offer some explanation as to why I haven't been around very much lately...

The truth is, I'm struggling.
Really struggling.

I wake up every morning in tears, wishing I'd have miraculously died in my sleep.
Every day is a battle, and I can't fight anymore.

I miss my Alex, but he won't take me back. And yeah he was a dick to me half the time, but he was my baby. He was the only person that has ever made me feel like my life is worth living. And I lost him. I lost everything that mattered.

I spend every night alone, wishing that someone would take me out, someone would want to spend time with me.
But noone ever does.
I'm sick of asking people to go out all the time.
They must think I'm such a pain in the ass.

I'm alone.
I'm depressed.

And I've given my life one week to give me a reason to stick around.
After that, I'm done with it.

UPDATE:
Just finished speaking to my mum about how I felt. I hate myself so much for upsetting her so much and making her cry. She was begging me to speak to someone else because she can't handle her baby saying she wants to end her life. I didn't want to upset anybody I feel so terrible.

Also... I will respond to everyone's kind messages and comments soon, I just need to be in the right frame of mind... i.e. A lot calmer than I am now. Thank you to everyone though, seriously. I'll get back to you soon. Night night xxx