My boyfriend hacked into my SG account and read everything I've ever said to anyone.
I said some really horrible things.
I slagged him off.
I flirted outrageously.
I was a complete slut.
I was just playing the game.
I would never cheat on him.
To me, it was harmless.
And I never thought he'd find out.
But he did.
And I feel like the most disgusting person in the world.
I love him, and I treated him without any respect at all.
I'm ashamed.
And disgusted.
And I really really really want to die right now.
I thought about it yesterday.
Apparently the chances of you dying are 20% if you get hit by a car going at 30 mph, and 90% if you get hit by a car going at 40 mph.
I didn't know what speed the cars were going outside, so I didn't risk it.
I don't think he'll ever take me back, and I don't expect him to.
I don't know what I'm doing from one day to the next.
I just want things to go back to how they were.
I want to hold him, and kiss him, and giggle, and play with his hair.
But it really is over for good now.
I really don't want to talk to anyone today.
Feel free to message or comment, but I can't guarantee I'll reply.
I just want to be alone.
I really messed up.
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Have you taken everything that they're writing to heart?
Seems to me that if you were such a horrible person, there probably wouldn't be a single response here.
Does this make us all horrible people for caring about you?
If we're not, then you're not... simple as that.
I can't express myself any better than all of the people who have written in before me; go back and read them again.
Don't do anything drastic; you need some time and distance from this to be able to see things for what they really are.
Let us know what else we can do for you; you are very well thought of here, obviously, and we want to make sure you're going to be okay.
But with that said, I've seen a lot of your flirtation and it all seemed very innocent to me. And either way, hacking into a private account shows a lack of trust that would have been an issue eventually anyway. Better off without him.