wilmhoff1334

So everything has been ok with me since i went through the sweat ceremony. I went through alot and i have a better outlook now. I at least am able to get over alot of the quilt i had. I went through alot during the war. I wan to be able to to deal with life again. My self destructive behavior is subsiding more and more over time. When i got home from iraq i used drugs to cover up smy pain. Now at least i am finding other ways deal with myself.

The down side of this month is that i have been robbed twice in two weeks. The first time this kid wanted to be a canadian soldier and he said he wanted to kill "towelheads" in afghanistan. So when anyone tells me they want to join the army, i feel obligated to tell them what its like and how to deal with all the things you'll encounter. Not to mention the fact that racism in a occupied country only begets more violence. SO after talking to himmm for a while i was invited to smoke a joint with him and his brother. Well when i got there they put a knife to my throat and robbed me. So after feeling a little emasculated i walked home for about 10 klicks.

Then after not going out for a little while. I didnt feel up to going out because i well didnt feel like dealing with people again for a while. When i did go out i met this cute chick who i have a date with tonight. So i hope that goes well. Most people in this shit town have tunnel vision and alot of girls seem to be interested in me because im a foreigner. But when i left that bar and was walking to my car a guy came up behind me and put a knife in my back,grabbed my wallet and then took the money out. I started to fucking scream at him and started running after the guy. I didnt have a weapon but i still lost it a little. Considering this happened to me not more than a week prior. SO he got away and i found my wallet. The bad part is that i was holding onto a hundred bucks for a prisoner till he got out. I now had to tell the people i work for about it. What i didnt know is that prisoners arent supposed to have more than 10 bucks at a time and now he might get into some trouble. He may even have to go back inside. ITs shit i know. But i had a bad couple weeks.

So this week i am going to the bush to prepare for the bear hunt. I wont be at a computer till friday. I will be learning about beekeeping and about bear and deer hunting. There are alot of bear out heree. So i may get one myself. THey are over populated ans the hunts are strictly controlled. I wouldnt have anything to do with them otherwise. So ill have alot of cool pics for everyone when i get back.

Gutterboy