Not to bring down the mood, but I just found out my granddad has lymphoma and I've pretty much lost touch with reality. I go from crying compulsively, to just staring at the wall with the hope that i will just fall in and won't have to deal with anything anymore. I'm trying to make plans to fly out to cali and see him but mother says he's gotten pretty delusional the past few days and I'm terrified of seeing him that way.
FIATH
FIATH