willard7

I'm having a discussion within my head about my paranoia. If something's too good to be true, it obviously is. So after a period of about a year and another year, I may have met a girl that I like. Not just like, but AM like. Like enough that she might be dateable. But for the love of Christ, I'm paranoid.

I'm asking her out, I swear. But I really expect the worst. She's saying the right things and doing the right things to make my heart stop beating, not just flutter. Everything I talk to her about is like a gunshot, like the inescapable truth of death. She agrees with me about things I haven't told her about. We see eye to eye on issues I didn't think other people knew existed. I don't tell her what I think and she nods, she tells me what she thinks and I sound like an asskissing dumbass agreeing with her because, oh my god, she's RIGHT. She's right about things because they're the same beliefs I have. She's too young though, only 18 or 19. Pretty but not gorgeous, in a cuddly "let's go watch a movie" kind of way. I want to talk to her tomorrow. I want to talk to her now.

It's all too good to be true. The last time I met a girl like her, I spoke and she agreed and it was all lies. Lies and more. But Sara, she says it first. Am I going crazy? Am I imagining the words coming from cell phone? Did I even call her today?

Wow, I can't believe it. Did I finally, finally find a girl worth wanting again?