Okay, this won't be up to the standard I've set for myself up until now, but fuck it, I'm beyond caring. Meh. I'm not going to say I'm back as that has backfired in the past. I'm not making any absolute declarations anymore as after I make them I always end up reneging on them. So yes, I'm sort of back. Sort of. A bit. For now. Maybe. I'm saying right now, that up until now I've been a pushover, but I'm kind of sick of fitting into that role. Being a supporting character in my own life... If you get what I mean. I'm rather angrier than I was the last time I was online. Caustically sarcastic too. I actually have opinions, is what I'm saying. Outwardly angrier, I mean. Which is a good thing, as it takes the pressure off the inwardly angry side of things. I'm projecting some of the unconscious aggression I've kept bottled up, onto the world around me, and coming away with the type of confidence that other people take for granted. I do enjoy the occasional rant on any of the below topics.
Things I now like: socialism, feminism, war history, body hair.
Things I now don't like/really disagree with: religion, capitalism, war, fake people, make up, Israeli military policy.
Now. This may result in friends list culling, but meh. That's what happens when people disagree on topics. I'm not going to change what I believe in to fit in with what other people believe in anymore. I've also become more devoted to the type of music I enjoy. Hehe, not a trace of acceptance anymore
If it doesn't sound like it's grating along the inside of your skull, or is lyrically reminiscent of HP Lovecraft, then I probably won't like it. Note how I said probably. I have a lot of exceptions. Probably surprising exceptions. And I'm still very much in love with my girlfriend. I visited her again and we were still the exact same with one another. As if the 6 months of being apart hadn't happened. Well it happened, but our attitudes to one another were the same. About a minute or two of awkwardness, but it all came flooding back. Toodle-oo for now.
Things I now like: socialism, feminism, war history, body hair.
Things I now don't like/really disagree with: religion, capitalism, war, fake people, make up, Israeli military policy.
Now. This may result in friends list culling, but meh. That's what happens when people disagree on topics. I'm not going to change what I believe in to fit in with what other people believe in anymore. I've also become more devoted to the type of music I enjoy. Hehe, not a trace of acceptance anymore
If it doesn't sound like it's grating along the inside of your skull, or is lyrically reminiscent of HP Lovecraft, then I probably won't like it. Note how I said probably. I have a lot of exceptions. Probably surprising exceptions. And I'm still very much in love with my girlfriend. I visited her again and we were still the exact same with one another. As if the 6 months of being apart hadn't happened. Well it happened, but our attitudes to one another were the same. About a minute or two of awkwardness, but it all came flooding back. Toodle-oo for now.VIEW 4 of 4 COMMENTS
mrbubblewarp:
good to see you back, I miss reading your blogs on here... on another note, I've gone and fallen in love with a Brit. She's in the US with me right now...and we're doing our best to make that permanent. I'll be in the London area the second week of April and will be thinking of ya.
scarringthewound:
I'm so delighted that you have found a girlfriend! I always knew the Mighty Sir Wild would shine through in the end. It sounds like she really does love you very much. Know that when people truly like you, they'll seek you out themselves.