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Saturday Dec 05, 2009

Dec 5, 2009
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Ok folks. It's that time again. Except this time it'll be an actual blog instead of a list of random shit i hate. I don't have a lot to say though, so it's gonna be short. I'm sick of being single and alone. If i don't do something soon i'm afraid i'll slide even further into the abyss of solitude and this time it'll be too deep to wade back out. I decided to stay up all night to clear my head. I need the time to myself to think properly. Have a quiet environment where i don't have to listen to anything i don't want to listen to. Weird how the only way i can figure out a way to not be alone, how to spend all my time with someone, is by intentionally cutting myself off from people, getting time to myself to think things through. Is that irony? I'm not entirely sure.

Another thing i've realised recently is that i think i might have the wrong idea about what it means to like someone. Personally, when i have a crush on someone, i consider it a big deal. That's not a title that a person earns lightly. But i don't think that's how the majority of people see it. I suppose the main thing i'm wondering about is the grander social norm. What's normal for one person might be completely alien to another. Can real feelings be lost in translation? If you have a crush on someone, do both parties know what that means? Is one person's crush the same intensity as another person's? And, if somebody has a crush on you too, how is it decided which person's crush is more valid? Is one person's perception of love the same as another person's? I suppose i could make an analogy with Special Relativity. Depending on the person's viewpoint, can the same laws and rules appear warped and different? How is it decided which person's feelings are closer to the truth, a social norm, if there were such a thing?

The idea of a perfect rest frame doesn't exist in reality. There's nowhere in our universe that is entirely stationary, that can give a perfect, unaffected view of the laws of physics. Every single measurement is made relative to something. There is no perfect inertial frame. I think the same can be said for liking someone. There is no go-to chart for how intensely you like someone. There's no stationary, unaffected point by which to measure how much you like someone. There's no reference point that both parties can find and check with. Is it possible for two people to ever realise that one person loves the other more? Or less? Would you even want to know? I suppose i'm jumping the gun a bit. Crushes and love aren't even nearly on the same level. But it's the same basic idea. Do some people crush harder than others?

In chat recently, i observed, and thought about something i heard. I'm not sure what the context was, or who actually said it, but the basic gist was this: romance should be easy. And this got me thinking. Is love, romance, the ability to attract a mate. Is it innate? Is it supposed to be innate? If push came to shove, would your own brain tell you the right course of action? Through some deeply embedded instinct would you be able to woo the opposite gender? Personally i think the idea of being innately romantic is a crock of horse shit, but i'm interested to know other people's thoughts on the subject.

There's a high chance that this might be some topic found in a first year philosophy book, or something like that. There's a high chance that this is one of the topics that's used as a beginner's problem for those who study the human condition. I've just drawn this conclusion, these questions, from analyzing the workings of my brain. This is the diamond that came from the tonnes of coal dumped into my head over the past week, if you will tongue I know most of the people on this site are more the artistic type, more suited to thinking these questions over, but i've just been wondering about this for the past while. It suddenly sparked a few minutes ago. The words i needed, to verbalise what i was thinking about. For some reason when i'm running on no sleep i get more introspective than normal. I start to think a bit deeper than i normally do. I'm not sure if it evens makes sense half the time, but i think this does. Having read through it again. Yes i think it makes sense. I suppose i won't start really feeling tired til a bit later on, but for now i think the introspection is working out nicely. While i'm in this type of mood, i'll try for a little more. Chip away at the motherlode of unresolved crap, haha tongue

This next bit is about attention. Do seem people seek it, while others avoid it? Which would you rather be: the centre of attention or part of the crowd? Thinking back on the various things i see and hear throughout the week, it sort of sticks out that some people constantly crave the attention and acknowledgement of their peers. And are willing to go to extreme lengths to do so. Personally i don't like the spotlight. I don't like the idea of being under people's scrutiny, having people commenting on what i do. I know that's a bit stupid, considering the website in question, but i still thnk it's a valid question. Is there a fundamental quality that differs in people? Is there an innate, subconscious drive for acceptance among a peer group, and more importantly, does it vary from person to person?

Again this is probably first year sociology, or psychology, but that's not my area of expertise. I haven't the first clue about any academic pursuits outside my chosen field. I know that makes me narrow-minded. I have a large amount of detail in a relatively small field, and i haven't peeked my head out of there for a long time. I've mentioned before my stunning lack of knowledge when it comes to anything outside of physics. Anything relating to art, history, philosophy, deep personal thought, has always eluded me, and as such has restricted my perception of things. I'm trying to break out of this mould, to see things from more angles, to get a firmer grasp on life as a whole. So this is how i'm trying to do it. By thinking about stuff i haven't considered before. Trying to gauge my opinions and think aloud. That's basically what this blog is. My rambling questions about life, the universe and everything in it. (If anyone gets that reference: you are officially amazing). And hear what opinions other people might have on the subjects.

I know at the start i said this would be short, but the brain leads you to weird places. I started out by saying that i'm sick of the solitude, but it quickly branched off from that. That's still the main crux of the matter. The main thing i'm striving for. I don't want to say that this type of introspection is only a means to an end, cos it's more than that. I've only come to realise recently, the importance of personal opinion and the person in life. I hadn't much time for art or the workings of the brain until a short while ago, so this is sort of my first stumbling steps into the fields of aesthetics, personal reflection and the nature of love. What it means for both people as a whole, and the individual person. And how it's seen, felt, and, maybe in time, achieved.

That's pretty much it for now. Comments? Opinions? Stuff you find amusing? Peace out y'all smile
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angad19:


Do some people crush harder than others?



Yeah, I think this is possible. Some people just don't give in to their crush-y feelings as easily as others. That said, I've had big crushes and small crushes in my life and consequently, hard crushes and fluffy crushes. It depends a lot on whom you're crushing on and where you're coming from. As you said, there's no perfect inertial frame of reference which makes gauging things more difficult than they should be whatever.

While the ability TO mate is innate, I'm not so sure about the ability to attract a mate. That said, I do think that one will naturally attract some people to himself/herself just by being whom they are so while the ability to attract may not be encoded in all our minds, the ability to be attracted surely is. Both of these create the same result, just through different means smile.

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