wildchild

Yeah, so I dissed everybody tonight. Everyone I had plans with, because I feel like shit. I would just have been a quiet, negative asshole, and nobody wants that. I really am a lot of fun when I am in good spirits, but today was just another one of those days. I couldn't stand to be at work a second longer, because I didn't feel like talking and being nice to people. I hate struggling with myself and flighting this constant fight with my emotions. One of my friends seemed really pissed that I flaked, but I can't help it. I just need to be by myself. I have become such a fucking dick over the past few years. I don't know how it happened. I used to be a lot of fun and always in a good mood. Now I'm always angry and depressed. Who the hell am I? No wonder I can't get a girlfriend. No wonder I can't even get a girl to kiss me. I probably come off as this insensitve bastard. But that's not the case at all. I think I have too many feelings...