wildchild

Morning is upon me... always much too early for my liking. Thank god for coffee, which I am enjoying right at this moment as a write yet another journal entry. I have the day off, and am supposed to be packing but I just don't want to. I will get to it eventually. I am listening to Nosferatu- does anyone know what a cool band they are...or were? I'm not sure if they still exist, but damn they are great. They sound a lot like the Sisters of Mercy. Personally, I think the Sisters have better lyrics because Nosferatu are really stuck on the whole vampire thing and that just bugs me. But hey, I've gotten past it and they have great guitar riffs and creepy bass lines. What more could you want, really. I put some pics up in the "my pics" section because I was bored. So all of you- or the few of you that do infact read my journal, can go and check 'em out! My mom is coming to visit next weekend. I have never really been close to anyone in my family and the thought of her coming to my town and my world- glimpsing into my life sort of frightens me. Not that I am doing anything I shouldn't be... at least I hope not. It is incredibly sad, but my mom is almost a stranger... When she's here, I fear I'm not going to know how to entertain her or where to take her or anything. I rarely even see her, only like once a year. I recentally was talking to her and made a comment referring to her perhaps comming to visit in the near furture. The next day, she booked a damn flight! I'm glad, because I would like to be closer to her and this may give me the chance to perhaps do so. She has never been comfortable about the gay issue and I can't help but feel that I have let her down in more ways than one. Also, here is yet another dilemma- I have a whole bunch of tattoos that she has never seen. I'm talking a bunch, like a full sleeve. I have managed to hide it from her for the past couple of years because the few times that I have seen her, it has been in the winter, so I was able to wear long sleeves. She would flip if she saw it! I know that I am old enough now to do whatever I want and I shouldn't be worring about what she thinks, but she's my mother! I can't very well wear long sleeves because it is much too warm. I don't know what to do... Help! Does anyone have any ideas?