widower2000

Well, I am getting ready to leave Fort Lauderdale Wednesday afternoon, and head back to my reality in Norfolk, Va. This trip was worth the time, effort, and money I paid. I did everything I came down here to do, and got better than expected results. I had the final chat with my late wife. Something about sitting down, facing her headstone, (which was the first time I saw it), on grass that had been growing (not the freshly overturned ground that was here the last time), and realizing that the last part of traditional wedding vows, "till death do us part" really meant what it said. I have released myself from the burden that I had been carrying since she died on August 27, 2000. I cant say that I feel like "a new man", but I can say I feel that I am finally able to start a new life. To hopefully find my next life partner, wherever she may be, whatever her age may be, and start a new life together. I am also free to continue my work towards a new career. None of this means that I will ever forget her, after all, I spent 23 years with her, (half of my life at this point). It doesnt mean I will ever stop loving her, but it does mean that I can love again. It wont be the same, but I hope it will be just as intense. It wont be the same, because I am not replacing her, I am simply finding a new love. A new person to love, cherish, build a new life with. It takes time, and I am very willing to spend the time it takes. I dont rush into anything, if I am guilty of something, then maybe its moving along slower than the slowest turtle. But once the doors to the love I have are open, they cant be shut. I can say that I am a very intense romantisist.

Well, thats all for now. Be well everyone, especially my friends!

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