I am having one of those "feel sorry for myself" days. I think everyone is allowed one once in awhile. I'm listening to "I Follow", Swingin Utters. It has a nice somber, slow beat.
I guess the time is coming where I finally, really really need someone who understands me. Someone who won't tell me that I get upset for stupid reasons. Someone who will be affectionate. Someone who likes the same things I do.
I feel like I am regressing. I was really shy as a kid. As a teen, I came out of my shell and in my early twenties, I didn't give a shit and became pretty outgoing. I'm nearly 23, and I am reverting back to the shy thing. It's annoying, I can't help it though, maybe it's because so many people have fucked me over? I'm scared of it happening yet again?
I've been searching for that special punk rock guy for awhile. I guess I have not been searching hard enough.
Oh, $wingin Utter$ is playing on my birthday and I can't go.
I guess the time is coming where I finally, really really need someone who understands me. Someone who won't tell me that I get upset for stupid reasons. Someone who will be affectionate. Someone who likes the same things I do.
I feel like I am regressing. I was really shy as a kid. As a teen, I came out of my shell and in my early twenties, I didn't give a shit and became pretty outgoing. I'm nearly 23, and I am reverting back to the shy thing. It's annoying, I can't help it though, maybe it's because so many people have fucked me over? I'm scared of it happening yet again?
I've been searching for that special punk rock guy for awhile. I guess I have not been searching hard enough.
Oh, $wingin Utter$ is playing on my birthday and I can't go.
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It's tough when you can look around and appreciate all the qualities of people near you and not be attracted to them, you start to think that maybe something is wrong with you and you could be missing something vital.
I think though that everybody feels it, that need to be wanted by someone in a way that makes you feel unstoppable. I do, but I think the best you can do is keep going and try to be unstoppable on your terms first. That of course is easier said than done but it's a pretty dream and I like it, so I'll probably keep it.
but your comment was a comment at my last journal entry... sorry I had to do that...
just don't get down on yourself...
lots of people do that....
I know it's easier said then done...
I get bummed out sometimes too...
but I never feel sorry for myself or get mad or sad about me...
I just get bored basicly....
but *shrugs*....
but we're stuck with ourselves till we die...
and then when we die... there's not much we can do...
since we're dead....
think about it...
well for me it'd be sad cuz there's be no more cigarettes...
no more video games.... no more running around acting like morons with friends....
no more weird noises you can make while punching eachother...
stuff like that... I'm telling you...
people who kill themselves are missing out on all the fun...
like pinching someone's cheeks and moving them back and forth real fast so their mouths make that weird floppy-flop noise....
you know what I mean...
*cough*
yeah...
8 )