Define Sad:
welcome to the new level of "Sad" i have reached. i have sunk so low as to punch ex's names in to Google and see what comes up. now, while this in it's self is pretty sad, what gets me is that three of them there is no information for while three of them have the same information i knew about them the last time i spoke to them, some that is nearly three to four years ago. so it comes to my attention that infact i may not be as sad as i once thought. just go with me on this: if they are no different than they were say..four years ago, and i am slightly different than i was four years ago, does that put me in a better place? now, i can hear your questions: but steve, they are in school and you are not, so they are likely to stay stagnant (i think i misspelled that) than you are working, so how can you think that they have not changed? and doesn't the fact that you looked them up useing the internet qualify as pretty frickin' sad? and my answer is: how do you know that they have not done the same thing about me? how do you know that somewhere out there, there is not one of my ex's who sits by her computer punching my name in to yahoo or google so that she may find out passing information about my life? (well ,steve, you are obsesive and they are not. they have gone on with their lives and you have not, you are a sad little man who just can't let go) well you may have a point.
i did not go to the night club with Blonde coworker Laura and the JCrew Crew (or is is JCrew squared?). something came up and i did not attent, but looks like she may becoming out for sushi on thursday with myself and Diana, she is slowly creeing back in to every fasset of my being except for the one fasset i need! intersting observation about Diana: when i return home from the Grill somenights, i like to open and "Adult" drink (i.e. a beer or Twisted tea) and head online to check news, e-mail and latest porn updates (alright i'm mainly there for the porn but you don't have to rub it in) but any time i have one of these drinks (which is not often) Diana magicly pops up in an IM. and she always asks if i'm drinking alone (yes i have tried telling her that i wouldn't have to if she was with me but it doesn't seem to help) so i am forced to tell her that i am. it's strange, everytime i have a drink i know that i will end up talking to her, is it fate?
taking some vacation next week and heading to Buffalo, NY for a friend's weding. while i am there i will be talking it over with a buddy of mine who has just gottena devorce from his wife and is all alone in that big ass house of his...hey this gives me an idea, details to come. will try to post before i leave and once i get back.
Notes:
1: friday Joss Wedon's "Serenity" comes out and i'm not sure why but i am really amped about it. "Frefly" was a cool show, and the movie should live up nicely, that and it's good to have something to look forward to.
2: too many boxes, make the bad man stop!!!!!
3: buy "NHL Hitz 2003" it's like six bucks and you can kill the goalies, it's sweet and simple!!!!
welcome to the new level of "Sad" i have reached. i have sunk so low as to punch ex's names in to Google and see what comes up. now, while this in it's self is pretty sad, what gets me is that three of them there is no information for while three of them have the same information i knew about them the last time i spoke to them, some that is nearly three to four years ago. so it comes to my attention that infact i may not be as sad as i once thought. just go with me on this: if they are no different than they were say..four years ago, and i am slightly different than i was four years ago, does that put me in a better place? now, i can hear your questions: but steve, they are in school and you are not, so they are likely to stay stagnant (i think i misspelled that) than you are working, so how can you think that they have not changed? and doesn't the fact that you looked them up useing the internet qualify as pretty frickin' sad? and my answer is: how do you know that they have not done the same thing about me? how do you know that somewhere out there, there is not one of my ex's who sits by her computer punching my name in to yahoo or google so that she may find out passing information about my life? (well ,steve, you are obsesive and they are not. they have gone on with their lives and you have not, you are a sad little man who just can't let go) well you may have a point.
i did not go to the night club with Blonde coworker Laura and the JCrew Crew (or is is JCrew squared?). something came up and i did not attent, but looks like she may becoming out for sushi on thursday with myself and Diana, she is slowly creeing back in to every fasset of my being except for the one fasset i need! intersting observation about Diana: when i return home from the Grill somenights, i like to open and "Adult" drink (i.e. a beer or Twisted tea) and head online to check news, e-mail and latest porn updates (alright i'm mainly there for the porn but you don't have to rub it in) but any time i have one of these drinks (which is not often) Diana magicly pops up in an IM. and she always asks if i'm drinking alone (yes i have tried telling her that i wouldn't have to if she was with me but it doesn't seem to help) so i am forced to tell her that i am. it's strange, everytime i have a drink i know that i will end up talking to her, is it fate?
taking some vacation next week and heading to Buffalo, NY for a friend's weding. while i am there i will be talking it over with a buddy of mine who has just gottena devorce from his wife and is all alone in that big ass house of his...hey this gives me an idea, details to come. will try to post before i leave and once i get back.
Notes:
1: friday Joss Wedon's "Serenity" comes out and i'm not sure why but i am really amped about it. "Frefly" was a cool show, and the movie should live up nicely, that and it's good to have something to look forward to.
2: too many boxes, make the bad man stop!!!!!
3: buy "NHL Hitz 2003" it's like six bucks and you can kill the goalies, it's sweet and simple!!!!
we love ya, you're our sad not so little man.