wichcraft66

The End Is The Begining Is The End:
well, that's all she wrote. i knew it, i knew she'd never leave him and (of all things to be right about) i was right. she's not going to leave her boyfriend, she's not going to leave him for a guy like me (I.E. who is me), if she ever does it will be for some sargent in the army who's a republican and thinks bill o'rielly is smart. no the events of my love life have not come to a head, more of an anti-climatic finish. during a conversation, i reslised that she wasn't going to leave him, even witha screwy work week that doesn't allow her to see him, even when she spends every friday night out with another guy (me) she's not going to leave him. and you know something? i'm ok with it. i am, shock of shocks, i'm not sad, i'm not angry, it just seems natural, a return to normality, like the end of the Matrix. i'm tired of sitting around wondering if she "likes" me, it's fucking childish, if i wanted that i would have stayed in high school. no, i'm not happy about it (but when's the last time i was happy about much?) but it's ok. perhaps i'm not going about this whole "it's over" thing however. i did happen to mention that "Hitchhiker's guide" comes out on friday and asked if she wanted to go, but i am at least going in to this with not questions. we are just two coworkers unwinding after a hard work week with a movie and more than likely dinner, but that's to be expected, right? yes i know it sounds like a date, but so did all of the other nights so cram it.
in other news: the day i dread more than all the hollidays combined happens next week and already my life has been sent in to a whirlwind. you celibrate your birthday and you're dissapointed, you tell people not to even mention it and you're the bad guy. word spread through the store that my birthday happens next week and suddenly i'm inindated with crap, it's bullshit as far as i care. no one cares about me 364 days of the year so why should this one day be any different. usualy i avoid all of this by simply taking the day off but this year, with the trip in june and it being the first tuesday of the month which means there are a lot of promos and new titles going out, i won't be able to. it's fine i can use the money (which i'm still getting screwed on) and all will be well (yeah right, we have a new pope, and i can't get a date)

Notes:
1: watched "The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly" last saturday afternoon. god i love that movie, it's awesome.
2: with only a few more games left in the season, Arsenal consided the title to Chelsea who remains 10 points a head of the gunners. it will be the blues first Premiership title in 50 years, so jolly good chaps. enjoy it now, Arsenal's out for blood. side note: Arenal remain in top contention for the FA cup, so there is a sliver lining.