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so I honestly didnt think my day could have gone any worse (see last journal). Well it is now 616am I just got back from work, I fucking hate paperwork and thank God I was standing to the front left side of my partner rather then to the rear and right other wise I would have been shot......... So now it doesnt look so good for my partner, I hope they dont get rid of him but the people in Sacramento didnt sound too pleased. As for me who knows what the fuck they might do to me, for the most part I think they wont do anything to me since i never gave him the order to lock and load but they might decide to be dicks and get rid of both of us. I guess i have the fact that I wasnt shot last night to be thankful for but I'm fucked if i lose this job............

*update*

Its amazing how something like this sticks with you, I'm still shaking, a million things are still running thru my head, what could have been done different? what if I WAS on the other side and been shot? Why did he not follow my lead and keep it holstered? would that have happened had I not heard a noise and saw movement in the far corner in the bushes? Would it have happened if he went on patrol alone? FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!! why me why now