whiteyford

Okay, first off, I missed ya, but I have been following the saga - while I have not had the time to proper ly comment.

Here is what I have to say.

Take a deep breath and quit worrying about it. I have no idea what's happened to you in the past, but I do know pain... I do know fear... And I know what a gift it is to love and be loved and start a new relationship of promise... And I think that you should relax and let yourself enjoy the beauty of this new relationship. Give her and yourself (cause you are more fabulous than you think) a little more credit. If she is someone special for you, then she is going to love and accept all that is you... And I please remember that you can't take all the blame for past relatiohsips screwing up or not working. It takes two to tango.... and relationships work or they don't. Silly, but true. That being said, I don't think you are going to screw things up, and I don't think you should ruin this first part of what could be so beatuiful with worry and fear... I think fabulous things are for you on the horizon... and I think if you can let it, regardless of how it turns out, she sounds sweet and I think you should let this be a blessing in your life... That's my soap box two cents worth or something like that. I know what its like to be scared.... I do. I didn't have the courage to even let someone in as far as you have yet....

Just know that I've got my fingers crossed that this works out for you, that it makes you happy, and that she is someone who won't hurt your heart....

*hugs*

and to the japan question- undies, and socks... dude if you got that, that's all you need.

Once again I am glad that I was able to touch your heart...

Listen to my heart? My heart wants something it cannot have, or rather someone... So at this point, between you and me, its a lot more about letting go and being brave enough to find something new....

*hugs* thanks for putting a smile on my face. Take care.