whiteiris

I may not know about the exact situation, but the feelings of not existing . . . that is really hard. Sometimes I feel that way and I literaly seem to go into a trance. Everything gets blurry, and my eyes no longer see the world outside. It is like disentigrating into brief flashes of memory. I hate it. Perhaps it is somthing related to the brain.

I've always had strange dreams, and even stranger, I am one of those rare people who do not have large muscle paralysis when dreaming. Consequently I have accidently bolted up right and hit some of my bedmates over the past years without me even being aware! Thankfully I do not see this happening, so my flailing is never "on target."

I try not to think too much . . . there is such a thing as too much. It is hard. I believe it is better to be always be the verb, and never the object. Still, sometimes it is so overwheming.

The pic is me trying to convince a Jehova's Witness roommate of mine to get a tattoo a couple of years ago. I painted "Jehova" in ghetto glyph on my stomach to show him what it might look like. I tortured that guy more than I should have. . . but it was all in good fun.

Bah, I know how you feel about sitting down in a class and still feeling alone. I'm not from Ohio so I know absolutely no one. It really does suck

I hope things go better for you with your boy. Relationships used to stress me to all high hell, now being single stresses me to all high hell Just relax and take a deep breath. Besides you have bigger fish to fry then this guy. GRADUATE DAMNIT!!

hmmm... I should shave my legs some time and find out

haha, yeah right just kidding

When I was fifteen I had this really long gray hair growing from my knee. I thought it was cool in a sort of freakish way, but my younger sister yanked it out when I was taking a nap.

Oh well.




[Edited on Feb 10, 2005 7:37PM]

I'm bummed to hear that... I hate it when someone does something that severly affects children. It is quite selfish and ignorant of the bastard. I hope your children are ok. As much as I can't stand children, they are our future so I hope the best for yours.

As for school, my brain picked a great time to check out. I'm so behind I'll be lucky to pass this quarter

Micah said i should try meditating to regain my balance in life. I dunno if it works or not but he seems really happy. You should give it a try too, although I have no idea how to meditate.

And yes, they do need more animal smileys. A cow one and a platypus one would be cool. They also need a goat one and a ninja one.

aww they're soo cute! your boys are gonna love that huh?

I want a pet!!!!

awesome

Ah the hesitation, don't you love it? Gotta however give the guy credit- cuz he could've lied... (they're pretty good at that)

btw i used to work in restaurants- and it's a real bitch- glad that your peeps took care of you as that is always nice.

L

Aristotle (384-322 BC) - Greek philosopher
Change in all things is sweet.


me & my quotes

I have been pondering the same question for some time now. I have had a subject in mind for sometime now (someone who has made my sister's life miserable. She has tried to get my sister fired from job most recently). I have wanted to come up with a plan for revenge that would make her cry, without property damage, and without blood. It is hard! I am not a cold revenge type person, unless you mess with my younger sister. I guess I'm protective.

I do have these ideas to toss out. They are more like practical jokes, though.
1. red Kool-Aid or boullion cube placed in showerhead.
2. When he goes out of town, use his phone to dial the talking clock (recording loop) in Australia and leave off the hook.
3. Make them run for a political office without their permission, and on a rather offensive platform. Leave flyers, posters, letters to the editor, stickers everywhere.
4. Call everyone who will make a house call appointment (septic tank cleaners, cable, people who will dig a pool, vinyl siding people, etc.) and make an appointment at the revengee's address for say 7AM. Call television camera crew and let them know that there will be a big story at the address at 7AM. The place will be packed with people banging on the door for their appointment.
5. Hide a stereo somewhere in their house, with a really bad song on a loop. Keep the volume low, say on .5. I did this one to a friend of mind. He never noticed it unless it was dead quiet in the middle of the night while he was trying to sleep.
After a few days I had to break down and show him where I hide the stereo. He tore apart his bedroom and could not find it so he thought it was the neighbors upstairs.
6. Put nuts and bolts inside their hubcap (if it is enclosed). The rattling sound will drive victim crazy, especially since they will not be able to pinpoint the noise to easily, as it will only rattle when they drive.

I'm sure I can think of more if you need.

later,
Chris

not a wonder he is your ex right? geez what waste. anyway no revenge to help you out there hon- but i'm glad nothing was too serious with Mason.

i know howit is when they dont want you to go..but when works over and they runn to see you at the door ...mmmmmmmm nothings better nothing

see thats why i dont work
oh and about the guy-cuddling-stopping thing.... um.. yeah!
i know girl. me and dave... (he doesnt like me talking about 'us' but im gonna anyway) .... i call it 'fading' and whenever he doesnt do things he totally USED to do i yell 'its FADING BABE!!!' and he says ' oh no its not! you swear.'.. thats his explanation. no, dead serious. isnt it good to relate? oh i have SO many more real examples but you'd get overwhelmed i just know.
i get jealous when i see those old couples, still patting the others butt when one walks past... i just turn and give dave this look. 'the look'. the 'its fading babe' look.
ooops geez i wrote more here than in my journal i think!
hehe

6 days huh? That's cool! In June we shall celebrate! Your pics are very cute, the hair looks good curly.



nite nite

wow i feel like its been forever

you lookin gooooood. so when are you becoming a suicide? when? soon? awesome!

well im off to go play board games with my nerdy fwiends!!