whiteiris

I am so pissed right now I can't even see straight. For the past week or so Cameron has been off. He has been really quiet and not much fun to be around. i know that he is down about the money and the bar but he is bringing it to us and that is not right. I don't think that I let me being...
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Last night was the first night back to work in almost 2 months. And guess what happens, I fall and bust my ass. Actually my knee. It is now turning pretty shades of purple and blue. Stupid server didn't clean up a spilled drink she dropped - actually she swept it up but didn't wipe it up. Stupid girl. But I am okay. Just took...
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You know I look back at some of the things I write and see how ungrateful I seem sometimes. And maybe not that. I seem to expect the worst. It's easier that way when you get let down because you expected it and didn't get your hopes up and then have them crushed.

I have these thoughts about me and Cameron that I keep to...
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Yeah. Well Happy New Year. I wonder how this one will differ from the last. School is going to get harder. Things are getting close to being done. I will be close to moving. Yet again I am tired. Didn't sleep as much as I needed to. Gonna work on that next week before I start back to work.

I am trying to find a...
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Tired Tired Tired. I am so glad the holidays are almost over. I still have to deal with peole being stupid on New Years but I will be home so there won't be much in the way of having to put up with anyone. I went shopping for me and the boys. Need to find a flour sifter. Took down the tree and put up...
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I got Jenna Jameson's book. I have never watched her flicks but have seen her in interviews and such. I have found that she is a really interesting person. So I bought her book and I am gonna read it.

It is still cold outside. Kinda nice - as long as you are inside. Christmas Eve is tomorrow. I really don't like Christmas time much....
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Hey - it's cold and raining outside. About damn time. It's December and fucking 85 outside. Just wanted to share that.

Well, we just got back from Florida. I was fucking freezing. The beach was beautiful and I got some really great pictures of the sun rising. I found out you cannot use a flash though. I have felt so bad for Cameron lately. His phone took 5 days to turn on - he laft both chargers in Florida - his CD player in his car...
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Just because you think things are okay - they never really are. There is something underneath everything that you see that will destroy what you are. It will always be that way but can you accept that?

Having sex without actually having sex is great. I had the best night Saturday night. Me, Cameron, and the couch. What more could a girl ask for? I felt very taken care of last night as well. It was really nice just the two of us here. I put up my Christmas tree and I was right in front of the TV and he didn't...
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