whiteiris

Actually what started it was when I found those messages. I had let myself be completely fooled. I let myself go and believe him that he wanted me. And then finding something like that when everything - in your eyes - had been perfect and things were going so well and then you get slapped in the face. Everything that was told to you was...
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I had the worst table tonight I have ever had. People wonder why bad thigns happen to them and I think it is because at some point you were a shit to someone else. Well, maybe so maybe not.

Cameron and I talked - well, rather I talked and he listened. I hope things will get better, I don't like the way they are now....
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I want a cat.

I am not so much pissed off but my feelings are hurt. I cooked dinner tonight and guess what? He didn't come over - as he said he would. I even reminded him about it this morning before he left. So I cooked for nothing. The boys don't eat stuff like that - well Mason did but I would have made something else if he...
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I don't like conversations like that. You know the ones where you begin talking with your significant other about how they are in relationships and then you start to wonder what makes you so different. He said he loved the girls but knw it wasn't going to last but stayed out of some sort of obligation. That kind of makes me think that is what...
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Hey, everyone say yay for crappy resolution on a camera phone YAY!!!!!!!

Whatever happened to drive in movies. I miss those.

Everything is about as ready as it can be to move.

I am hungry but have nothing which with to cook.

I want to call my boyfriend but don't think it is such a good idea. I am taking the hint.

Can I not...
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well, no rest for the wicked. I am going to gouge out my ear with a dull object. Anything is better than now. Thought I would share

Hey. it's me. Well, I can at least upload from my phone. Wonder why that works and nothing else does. I still need some help with the other picture posting.

I woke up a few hours ago and cannot get back to sleep. I have been sick these past few days and it seems the sickly part has now spread to my ear. It hurts...
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I need some help with the picture thing. I am trying to upload a profile pic and it tells me my file isn't what it is supposed to be but it is. I have put pics on Photobucket and whatnot but it still isn't working. The only way I can get any on here is to put it in my journal as a link.

If...
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Yeah well, whatever. Usually writing here makes me look at the things that bother me and put them into a better perspective so I don't completely lose it. Well, unfortunately last night did not work. I am still really upset. And it is not so much last night but the past week or so. Things have been under so much strain. I understand that relationships...
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