whiteiris

I am not mad at you. I am mad at myself for letting you. You don't use friends that way. Well, maybe you do - sometimes we all do. But I should have, could have stopped you. Now I hate myself and a part of me resents you for knowing that I am not in a position to really say no.

So - this incident will be filed under NOT ME and my trust of you has just dropped. I am still not angry, upset or hurt with you. Mainly myself for lacking the willpower to stop you. Even though what you did is what I have wanted you to do.

And no - this is not about Cameron - for once.

I feel dirty.I need a shower in battery acid.