whiteiris

I am a little calmer now. I went to class and got my learn on.

I think part of the moody, depressed, bitchy mode I have been in is becaue I am not on birth control anymore. I am thinking it is just the hormoes getting out of my system. That and the monumental impact of my hysterectomy. I am angry about that. I am 25. I still have my ovaries but they act as if they are not working. I am going to try and reign in my emotions.

I realize that I have been overly sensitive and getting mad at him for the least little thing. Also, one the other hand, he hasn't exactly been mr. friendly.. I really hope we can make this work. I love him so much. He makes things better even when they are bad.

He came over last night and it was rather quiet. Kinda strange but neither one of us really had anything to say. I wasn't upset or anything and I hope he wasn't. You know, as much as I talk, there are times I don't have anything to say. I am not upset or bothered just don't have anything to say.

I just hope he isn't right about us being almost perfect for each other. Sure we have differences. Even if we are perfect for each other we are going to have problems. Nothing is ever truly perfect. I think once we get out of this place things will be better. I won't have shit hanging over my head and he will be happier just because he doesn't have to wake up to Shreveport everyday.

I am going to make a valiant effort to not get so upset about things. That's my problem that I am going to try and fix. I use to not be that way so it shouldn't be so hard.

So....I have some new friends. I am happy for that. Got one of my projects done for school (well part of it). Mason had his dr. appt. today so I have to go check him out of shcool as well as Ashton. Don't know what we are going to do tonight.

I think I found a laptop that I wanted. If anyone has one and can suggest something that would be much appreciated.

Hmmm. i think I hear food calling my name.