I am going to describe the perfect relationship for you and what every girl dreams about. I will even list it numerically so no one gets lost.
1. Behaving as if your loved one is not there. This includes going to take a shower and not inviting the one you love to take one with you when you already know they are going to take one. And I mean just getting up out of the blue and going and turning on the shower. It is a little thing but it's the little things that count right?
2. Spending more time on the fucking computer than you do anywhere else. Lying in bed cold and alone while your loved on reads others journals and sufs the internet is exactly what you need to have. I saw that he was looking at someone's journal on SG and realized that he would rather be doing that that sleep with me. This is not just tonight either, it has been the past few nights. We might sleep together 1 night out of 7 if that.
3. Having mysterious numbers of items around. Example - four coffee cups in your sink when there where none yesterday and mentioning nothing of having company other than one girl.
4. Not speaking to the one you love. Don't ever do this or they might think you like talking to them.
I am sure there is more so I will keep you updated. If you can't tell things are not well in the land of oz. I woke up about 30 minutes ago in Cameron's bed (sans Cameron as usual) and walk into the living room. He is at his computer (as usual) and I am alone. He walks over to the couch and lays on me but says nothing. I get up and go back to bed. He does not follow. I lay there thinking ....I can be cold and alone at my own house and feel more comfortable and welcome than here so why am I here? So I leave. Not a word to him and I am sure he is wondering what the hell is wrong with me now and what did he do this time or something along those lines.
I am so unhappy. He made me so unhappy for so long and then when I let down my guard to try and be happy he fucks me over. I don't think I can be happy anymore. I use to be able to think that when I was sad it was nothing compared to the feelings I had when I wasn't with him. But that memory is fading.
I don't want to talk about it with him because nothing ever gets resolved. I talk and he listens. This is no way to have a relationship. He is so selfish at times. Of course I am too but never as bad as he is.
I JUST WANT A NORMAL FUCKING RELATIONSHIP. I am tired of the games and insecurities and never knowing where you stand. We have been together about 2 1/2 years. The topic of moving in together is ever present in my mind. I don't think he ever will. When it comes times for me to graduate and for us to move I don't think he will go with me. I told him that we needed to live together before we had to so we could see if we even get along. Well, 6 months is not long enough. we should have done this a while back ago. But yet again, a subject that has been pushed aside and I have let it.
What the hell happened to old married cuople in bed. That went away. He spends his time on the computer and sleeps on the couch. This is not a fucking relationship. I don't know what it is but I am not happy and neither are you. Should we end it? Are we growing apart? Things seem to be getting worse not better.
I have lived in my new apartment for about 3 weeks now. I have spent maybe 3 nights here with Cameron. He doesn't ever really come to my house so I go to his. I bend over backwards and mayeb that is part of the problem.
I don't want to think about this anymore right now so I am going to try and go back to sleep since class starts at 10 and I am going to have a busy day.
I got my W-2. I made 10k last year. Score one for poverty level. I just want a normal relationship. I don't think I will ever have that with Cameron. And if we ended it, I really don't think he would care. He would just go one and find some chick to fuck and not worry about me. Hell, he can call Edie. Or Lindsay.
1. Behaving as if your loved one is not there. This includes going to take a shower and not inviting the one you love to take one with you when you already know they are going to take one. And I mean just getting up out of the blue and going and turning on the shower. It is a little thing but it's the little things that count right?
2. Spending more time on the fucking computer than you do anywhere else. Lying in bed cold and alone while your loved on reads others journals and sufs the internet is exactly what you need to have. I saw that he was looking at someone's journal on SG and realized that he would rather be doing that that sleep with me. This is not just tonight either, it has been the past few nights. We might sleep together 1 night out of 7 if that.
3. Having mysterious numbers of items around. Example - four coffee cups in your sink when there where none yesterday and mentioning nothing of having company other than one girl.
4. Not speaking to the one you love. Don't ever do this or they might think you like talking to them.
I am sure there is more so I will keep you updated. If you can't tell things are not well in the land of oz. I woke up about 30 minutes ago in Cameron's bed (sans Cameron as usual) and walk into the living room. He is at his computer (as usual) and I am alone. He walks over to the couch and lays on me but says nothing. I get up and go back to bed. He does not follow. I lay there thinking ....I can be cold and alone at my own house and feel more comfortable and welcome than here so why am I here? So I leave. Not a word to him and I am sure he is wondering what the hell is wrong with me now and what did he do this time or something along those lines.
I am so unhappy. He made me so unhappy for so long and then when I let down my guard to try and be happy he fucks me over. I don't think I can be happy anymore. I use to be able to think that when I was sad it was nothing compared to the feelings I had when I wasn't with him. But that memory is fading.
I don't want to talk about it with him because nothing ever gets resolved. I talk and he listens. This is no way to have a relationship. He is so selfish at times. Of course I am too but never as bad as he is.
I JUST WANT A NORMAL FUCKING RELATIONSHIP. I am tired of the games and insecurities and never knowing where you stand. We have been together about 2 1/2 years. The topic of moving in together is ever present in my mind. I don't think he ever will. When it comes times for me to graduate and for us to move I don't think he will go with me. I told him that we needed to live together before we had to so we could see if we even get along. Well, 6 months is not long enough. we should have done this a while back ago. But yet again, a subject that has been pushed aside and I have let it.
What the hell happened to old married cuople in bed. That went away. He spends his time on the computer and sleeps on the couch. This is not a fucking relationship. I don't know what it is but I am not happy and neither are you. Should we end it? Are we growing apart? Things seem to be getting worse not better.
I have lived in my new apartment for about 3 weeks now. I have spent maybe 3 nights here with Cameron. He doesn't ever really come to my house so I go to his. I bend over backwards and mayeb that is part of the problem.
I don't want to think about this anymore right now so I am going to try and go back to sleep since class starts at 10 and I am going to have a busy day.
I got my W-2. I made 10k last year. Score one for poverty level. I just want a normal relationship. I don't think I will ever have that with Cameron. And if we ended it, I really don't think he would care. He would just go one and find some chick to fuck and not worry about me. Hell, he can call Edie. Or Lindsay.