whiteiris

I don't like conversations like that. You know the ones where you begin talking with your significant other about how they are in relationships and then you start to wonder what makes you so different. He said he loved the girls but knw it wasn't going to last but stayed out of some sort of obligation. That kind of makes me think that is what he is doing with me.

Things have been so off lately. I don't feel connected to him anymore. That feeling being with him even when I am not isn't there. I am waiting patiently though. Things are not going to get better overnight. We went and played pool tonight . It was fun until some drunk morons started to be loud and obnoxious.

Why can't he tell me that I am the one for him. That he loves me to distraction and he is sorry for being such an asshole sometimes. I don't like the fact that when he is not an asshole he is making up for being one. That is not a relationship. Just stop being so damn selfish and worrying about yourself. I worry enough for the both of us.

I finally got moved. More on that later. My feelings are hurt so I am going to go now. School started. That's going to take up a lot of my time. I am going to make some strawberries now and drwon my sadness in white chocolate.