whiteiris

I go in tomorrow. I think we are going to go to dallas today. Wanna try and leave after class. I hung out at his place for a bit last night but came home around 1. Just in case my mom drove by and didn't see my car here. I don't want to hear her bitch. I started bleeding and cramping again. Lots more blood this time. I am actually aa week out from when I am supposed to start but I guess after tomorrow I won't have to worry about it anymore.

I have the sniffles and I am kinda worried they won't do the surgery if I am sick. I am not really sick and I have been taking some antibiotics. I can't postpone this or move it to some other day. I feel better today. I know part of it is stress and my immune system is shot to shit having to fight off something worse than the sniffles. I sound worse than I feel. I know part of it is the weather. It has been raining for the past few days and I know that is part of it.

Mom told me to take the money that I was going to use to pay her back and go get the boys some clothes and shoes for Christmas. I said okie dokie. Don't have to tell me twice to go shopping. Clint is getting the boys tonight. I am getting scared. Really scared. They are going to put a tube down my throat and needles in my veins. I don't like needles. I need to go get ready for class and try to bullshit my teacher. I didn't do my paper. I just could not focus on it no matter how much I tried.

Well, off to make myself beautiful.