whiskeyfightpit

Maybe I should disappear for awhile. Sell of the unessentials and hit the fucking road. I've been thinking long and hard about working on an offshore oil rig. This career choice would keep me awayfrom the general population. Chances are I would run into more people like myself on an offshore oil rig. Even if I didn't, at least the place would be filled with eccentrics just doing their job. I think I need to get away from the people I know. It's the only thing I haven't tried yet. Drugs and the drink don't work. Having days off doesn't work. Buying tons of new music doesn't help. Reading doesn't help. Going to college doesn't help. Meeting new people doesn't help. Perhaps I should just try the constant motion thing. As each day passes, the whole "career" and "right path" vision gets less and less appealing. The factors keeping me on this road are less important to me. I don't care what members of my family or friends parents have to say about me. Nine out of ten of these fucks don;t know their ass from a hole in the ground. Since they live in America they have managed to carve out a little slice for them and their idiotic spawn. What they say or think of me would be about as important to me as steam coming out of a sewer lid. I just really don't want anything to do with anyone or anyplace. It just doesn't matter. I don't care where and how big my place of residence is. Who am I going to show this off to? It's not like I want to call any of these people. You can't take any of this bologna with you when you go. No piece of matter will make me satisfied. If I was selling stupid white people houses and making a fortune doing it I wouldn't give a fuck. I would still feel the same way.

The only way I can improve this state is to show as little emotion as possible. I need to get less upset when the human trash begin to enter my personal space. When I can detatch myself from that, I will begin to find a new center. RIght now I'm totally numb to most emotions or goings on, but if I can control my hatred towards other people I will be the true iceman. That is my goal as of late. Anything that happens to me will roll off like rain on a new waxjob. If I could care less you would have to check my pulse afterwards.

Offshore oil rig or perhaps a nightwatchman at a library or something. I can work on my Zen apathy in the quiet. This new iceman approach does have its benefits. I have no desire for the "social lubricant".

soundtrack of the day
FLUX INFORMATION SCIENCES
"Private/Public"

DOLLAR DAYS!!!!!