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I want to go to california. I want to go visit Jeff. He's coming home in May, but that seems like a lifetime from now.
I miss him. There's always that small part of me that wonders 'what if' about him. And I need to know if that 'what if' is just in my head, or if its real. ya know?
I wish I had $600 dollars to spend on something like a hotel and plane tickets. I wish I had $600 dollars to spend on bills.
Being broke sucks. And I still live with my parents. There is no way i'll ever afford to live on my own.
Fucking A. I think I need to look for a second job.