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Happy St. Patty's Day!
tonight was intense to say the least.
I am starting to see someone new. It's actually pretty rad. I've missed random 1AM phone calls from someone just because they were thinking about me...
Tomorrow night i am going to see my friend Mike play a show. Check Him Out!

working 10 - 3 tomorrow.

la la la.
Life is good.
Dave and I are talking buddies now I guess. He comes to me for relationship advice. Ironic. I give him good advice too.
I loved him with all my heart. I gave him everything I had. He couldn't give that back to me. Now that he's found someone he's willing to share that with? I'm happy for him. I...
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my dad broke my car handle off this morning.
I woke up to a note that read something like this.

"Marie -
I broke your car door handle. It was frozen.
You can still get in and out of the car.
- Dad"

next to the note was the door handle. I asked him how he plans on fixing it. "I can super glue it,...
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Happy Birthday to me!
I am now 21!!
I can legally drink at the bars now!
woo hoo!!

my Auntie is back in the hospital.
I guess she fell this morning and cut her head open.
I left work to go sit in the emergency room. She was so out of it. The doctors kept asking her what happened and she said she didn't know.
"do you know what year it is?"
"two thousand and........two...."
"do you know who our president is."
"Bama"...
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I want to go to california. I want to go visit Jeff. He's coming home in May, but that seems like a lifetime from now.
I miss him. There's always that small part of me that wonders 'what if' about him. And I need to know if that 'what if' is just in my head, or if its real. ya know?
I wish I had...
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Insomnia sucks.
I never fall asleep before 3 AM anymore.
I have to be at work by 9:30 tomorrow morning.
and we're supposed to be getting a ton of snow.
I'm debating on even attempting sleep at all.

gah. I went a whole month without thinking of Dave when I masturbate. All because he HAD to see me monday night, i've been having weird dreams about him.
And even my sexy fantasy tonight ended up starring him, instead of Spike from Buffy.
...dont ask....

I'm seriously fucked in the head.

I saw Dave tonight.
It was weird. Nice, but weird.
We talked. And it was nice. We ended up laying in bed together but nothing happened. Just talking. I told him he deserves to be happy.

I freakin love this song.