i've found myself discouraged from the site lately. content is great, and the girls are great as well, but it is a much different site than it used to be years ago. the reason, too many peope. i don't write blogs anymore, or post pics. never did write a lot, because it felt like a lot of work to be inevitably dissapointed by remaining unnoticed. now there are millions of people. its like being alone in a crowd again. it has become what i came to this site to get away from in my daily life. it used to be that i could write to someone, and they would respond. those days are long gone. is anybody else frusterated and discouraged by this? it used to be a personal place. now it feels like just another soft core porn site. millions of faceless men oogling at pictures of nameless, naked women. i miss when it was more personal. more socially interactive. i miss the thought that i might be worth the time and effort in to a 2 minute response from one of the sg's.

you are not special. you are not a unique snowflake. you're the same decaying organic matter as everything else. we're all part of the same compost heap. we are all singing all dancing crap of the world.

i'm in a bad mood. just feeling alone, again.