wherearemypants

dang ... talk about disappearing ... has it really been that long since i have been back here ? man my life really must be that fucked up

everything has gone to shit (... again)

i dont even know where to begin but the words : eviction, back stabbed, confusion, unlucky, and ?gonorrhea? come to mind ... ugh

why cant relationships be easy ?
why cant friendships be simple ?
why cant gambling be risk free ? ... wait

blah

right now im torn between love from afar with a painful past or very nice convenient company that could be something special ... both can go either way but which one is the right one ... hmmmm

second ... i have to choose between living the good life with a little dictator or roughing it on my own ... i have never been so dependant on someone but under the circumstances i had no choice ... but now i do ... live with my mistake because its easy or take responsibility for my actions and tough it out ... ugh

and thirdly ... 1 and 2 outters ... thats all im going to say

well if you need me ... i'll be the one in the corner ... curled in a ball ... rocking back and forth ... mumbling ... naked