i guess i will add a new journal entry ever week or so ... i dont know ... not that anyone reads this really ... and i really need to get a digital camera soon so i can post more pics ... heh
well so far my life has not changed much ... still shit ... im still broke as fuck thanks to my friends who seem to not know how to pay someone back ! words of advice ... dont lend out money to more than one person at a time or you have to start pawning shit to pay rent ... ugh
so since im broke, poker is on hold ... my one form of escape since i dont do any drugs or drink alcohol ... i mean i have video games but its not the same as sitting around the table with a bunch of friends and nonames flopping your nut straight across their face and waiting til the river to check raise them all-in while eating great food and talking about whatever bullshit topic comes up ... man i miss poker <sigh>
hows my love life you ask ? well its sort of weird ... long story short i met a girl online (uh-oh) and after a few months the shit hit the fan when all her lies came full circle but we worked it out and i moved her down from vegas and then after a few months she cheated on me ... so now here we are nine months later and she wants to get back with me and i sort of do too but i dont know ... its not that it doesnt feel right its just starting out different and i dont want to waste her time trying to hold onto the nostalgic past and the idea of what we used to have ... but i do miss her
i am doing a PPD study in a few weeks ... so that should solve my financial problems for the time being and i can get my TV out of hock and start getting my life back together ... this study is 3 weeks long and pays $5000 ... too bad all my bills are about $2500 a month and i can only do one study every two months ... DOH !
wow ... is that my life in a nutshell ... finances, broken love life, and a few hobbies ... how pathetic is that ? maybe i should start drinking
well so far my life has not changed much ... still shit ... im still broke as fuck thanks to my friends who seem to not know how to pay someone back ! words of advice ... dont lend out money to more than one person at a time or you have to start pawning shit to pay rent ... ugh
so since im broke, poker is on hold ... my one form of escape since i dont do any drugs or drink alcohol ... i mean i have video games but its not the same as sitting around the table with a bunch of friends and nonames flopping your nut straight across their face and waiting til the river to check raise them all-in while eating great food and talking about whatever bullshit topic comes up ... man i miss poker <sigh>
hows my love life you ask ? well its sort of weird ... long story short i met a girl online (uh-oh) and after a few months the shit hit the fan when all her lies came full circle but we worked it out and i moved her down from vegas and then after a few months she cheated on me ... so now here we are nine months later and she wants to get back with me and i sort of do too but i dont know ... its not that it doesnt feel right its just starting out different and i dont want to waste her time trying to hold onto the nostalgic past and the idea of what we used to have ... but i do miss her
i am doing a PPD study in a few weeks ... so that should solve my financial problems for the time being and i can get my TV out of hock and start getting my life back together ... this study is 3 weeks long and pays $5000 ... too bad all my bills are about $2500 a month and i can only do one study every two months ... DOH !
wow ... is that my life in a nutshell ... finances, broken love life, and a few hobbies ... how pathetic is that ? maybe i should start drinking
i dont know how many times this site has auto-refreshed the page wiping out my post in progress and making me sad
anyways ... in short ... PPD is a medical research facility which tests pharmaceutical drugs that are in their last stage of FDA approval on human subjects and financial conpensates each volunteer upon their completion of the study
in order to qualify you have to be a healthy person with no STDs ... as well as refraining from (heavy) exercise, smoking, drinking, drugs, and having sex for the duration of each study ... also each study can range from one night to one month in which you have to stay there for that entire period of time
if you can handle taking investigational drugs, having your arm poked a few times a day while being locked up in a small place with random strangers for a specific length of time while completely being void of any illegal substances, the touch of the opposite sex, and privacy ... then sign up ! but its definitely not for everyone but it does pay well ... meh ... it beats working