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Sunday Bloody Sunday



If you haven't read Lex's journal, please do so.

We are taking a "break". Break is short for breaking up. And that just makes me mad in a way, and yet relieved. I've been tortured being in a private and then public and then private relationship. I'm very much in love with her but it tortures me to not let the world know. It kind of sucks that when I spent a lot of time with her and got things for her and would come home to "so and so is great" and "I love this person" and no mention of me. And she is quite the popular person. The only time we were completely together was in bed. Even then I still had to fight with the phone. It hurts. It really does.

But I completely understand her viewpoint as well. Love should be just between 2 people. It should be enough for her to say thank you and I love you so much to me in person. It's not her fault that she gets phone calls at odd hours of the night. I totally understand. We are different people at different stages in life. Hopefully, we can get back when the timing is right.

I am very sad. But I will eventually be okay. We are still talking, texting and chatting online and it's only been an hour. I feel like puking though. My whole world gone. I'm sure we both could use some lovin' so be nice with both of us. Please be nice with both of us.

Love ya's
no big smile this time sorry