whatshisnuts

R.I.P. My little 8Ball. I will never forget you my child.

I'm not really up for commenting. I just want you all to know that I love you and I'm still reading your journals and stuff. I'm just sad, depressed, and heartbroken. I'll be ok. Sometimes I'm just fine and then I think about it ( the child that could have been) and I just lose it.

Is it wierd that I consider this being my child? It only had several weeks of development but dammit it was my kid! UGH! And to not even know I was a father until after I wasn't just kills me inside.

Anyway, I'm still alive and I have my life to live. Hopefully things will get better. I just need to get my head cleared and in a different place for a while. Like I said, I'll still be here. I just won't be commenting to everything as much. I love you!