whatsanalias

Been learning about myself a lot lately. Interesting how much I never really defined. I guess I didn't ever feel I needed to...I mean I am who I am. Sometimes though when someone else asks that question, it makes you stop and think.

I have answers, always did. But now I'm finding new definitions. I got called a chamealion a few months ago and didn't...
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Don't know what to do....I'm in so deep and yet I've heard nothing this week. Could be bad, could be good, could be nothing. Just all its doing is showing me how truly in deep I am.

Well a bad event last night got countered by possibly a good one tonight. Justr came across some stuff on the internet tonight that made me feel better about everything that's been going on. All I have to say in the end is my life is just really strange.

Screw going home. Just don't feel like dealing. Actually don't feel like dealing with a lot. Of course I managed to accidently find something from stupid other guy in my fucked up situation. Ugh.

Things have been going well (at least I thought) but this week Anne wanted to herself to get stuff set at her place for school. Of course I'm not stupid to...
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so I'm an optimist. Actually that isn't true....sure I hope for the best but I always imagine the worst. Kinda don't want to be in my mind sometimes. The curse of having an overactive imagination is that you can come up with many many bad possibilities. But I keep these quiet.

Why do I? Someone close to me once said misery loves company. Maybe I...
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Merry Christmas.

Well I wish it was a better day....

After multiple trips to get my car registration and license changed, I could only accomplish one of the two. It seems that due to something that happened a month or so ago, my license is in limbo and gets to remain that way until I go to court. Well that made me want to just jump for...
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Going to California for the weekend. I have to babysit a roller-coaster. Sleeping alone sucks...current situation in life sucks so much more.

Just when you think a day or two went well...

guh, missing a few things right now. I'm hoping now that I moved, I can find a place to fence here in Michigan with sabre fencers for once. I miss the adrenaline rush from it....the speed and power, along with the grace. I'm also supposed to go to see a DJ tonight but not totally...
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Life actually hasn't been bad lately. Just working on that one day at a time thing. Unfortunately realization is finally hitting that we should cancel the wedding plans. This could be a good thing though since it takes off the pressure of a looming date. Well best just not thinking about it right now. Anne and I have been ok, so I guess its just...
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