The ride has been going well lately and so for the most part my mood has been great. Its been one of those times when you really get back to the why of what you do and you feel good about it....at least I do. I'm making this thing work!
But good is not my mood right now. Eight months of this and things are still going along with Anne and I. For the most part especially the last few months its been going as good as one could hope....well at least I think so. I've noticed differences....to the point its actually been better now than when we dated. And the other guy keeps fucking up worse and worse from what I've been told by her. Anne keeps telling me he has systematically been destroying her feelings for him with all the dipshit things he's been doing I knew he'd do. The guy is a fucking loser.
So I should be happy. Problem is things occasionally happen that make me question it. Its not that I'm being lied to....I don't believe that. If so then there'd be just no purpose to any of this. But I don't know everything either. I know I'm not told when she sees him, and although she says its rare, it still makes me wonder. I think I'm tired of not knowing....not that I need every detail.
So this past weekend, Anne was going to PKI with her parents she kept telling me. But then I read online he was there...hate finding shit like this. So did he go with her and the family? Was this why she said her parents just wanted it to be the three of them so I wouldn't be there to go? Was it just the two of them that went? Or was everything I was told true and he just happened to go on the same day? So I'm sitting here waiting to find out answers....not that they are gonna change much
It just makes me wonder are things as bad with him as she says? How much do they talk? At some point SOMEBODY needs to make a decision. I just want to know...and feel I need to know, am I getting the real story. Ugh.
But good is not my mood right now. Eight months of this and things are still going along with Anne and I. For the most part especially the last few months its been going as good as one could hope....well at least I think so. I've noticed differences....to the point its actually been better now than when we dated. And the other guy keeps fucking up worse and worse from what I've been told by her. Anne keeps telling me he has systematically been destroying her feelings for him with all the dipshit things he's been doing I knew he'd do. The guy is a fucking loser.
So I should be happy. Problem is things occasionally happen that make me question it. Its not that I'm being lied to....I don't believe that. If so then there'd be just no purpose to any of this. But I don't know everything either. I know I'm not told when she sees him, and although she says its rare, it still makes me wonder. I think I'm tired of not knowing....not that I need every detail.
So this past weekend, Anne was going to PKI with her parents she kept telling me. But then I read online he was there...hate finding shit like this. So did he go with her and the family? Was this why she said her parents just wanted it to be the three of them so I wouldn't be there to go? Was it just the two of them that went? Or was everything I was told true and he just happened to go on the same day? So I'm sitting here waiting to find out answers....not that they are gonna change much
It just makes me wonder are things as bad with him as she says? How much do they talk? At some point SOMEBODY needs to make a decision. I just want to know...and feel I need to know, am I getting the real story. Ugh.