whatsanalias

Screw going home. Just don't feel like dealing. Actually don't feel like dealing with a lot. Of course I managed to accidently find something from stupid other guy in my fucked up situation. Ugh.

Things have been going well (at least I thought) but this week Anne wanted to herself to get stuff set at her place for school. Of course I'm not stupid to not know she needed time apart from me to think about where her feelings are at. It could be a good thing but this little find involving him using the L word to her has not made an already tough week any easier (understatement of the week). And no, I wasn't snooping...I was actually looking for pictures for a present for her on a CD she told me about and left here.

So supposedly nothing is wrong with me. But why do I feel less unique, not as much fun, or not good enough in general. Damn it, I'm tired of it...tired of not feeling good enough for anyone, especially while being told its not me. Okie, so if it isn't, why has it been so damn hard for me to find someone for me? Just really fucking depressed right now...tired of rescuing everyone to just be dropped later on. For once why can't someone rescue me?