well, what to make of life...
as usual the saga continues. Got it down to it just being a question of feelings for her....*sigh* me or him and somehow he's one she is sure they would just work out perfectly. Why am I never that guy? I guess though there's still enough feelings for me in all of this that she hasn't gone that way. Some days I feel like an idiot for sticking this all out. Like that everyone else would look at go wake up already.
I dunno. At this point you question a lot, and it gets bad when you find you even wonder about that little voice that's always guided you. Yet, I still just can't let go.
Throw on top of this no sex through all of this and I'm going for sainthood. And yes there's temptations admitted on both sides, but its been kept on a friendship level (okie, with some cuddling and other stuff but not so much as a kiss)...I know the question is why the hell are you doing this to yourself....*sigh* but right now I'm still left with a girl I feel truly does fit that for me who is outside on the phone with the other guy and struggling again today with what to do.
Me or him...him or me. Why a choice at all? I know I have a lot to offer. I've led an interesting life, will never grow up, aren't afraid to try or do anything, love adventure, am extremely open minded, etc...
Its odd, I just read a random call for advice on here about a guy that everyone sees as just a friend. I've had similar problems, although mine come in with I don't seem to attract the type of girl I need for me. Ok, yeah I look normal and on first impression I may seem that way too. I need to be professional on what I do for a living. Problem is I know deep down I'm not normal. What appeals to me is different and unique people. I HATE the norm, and yet it seems the only people I meet that really fall for me are those that just want to "settle down"....UGH!. I hate that phrase. LIVE life!
Well if anyone has any advice on my sordid mess besides you're a complete idiot, feel free to jump in.
as usual the saga continues. Got it down to it just being a question of feelings for her....*sigh* me or him and somehow he's one she is sure they would just work out perfectly. Why am I never that guy? I guess though there's still enough feelings for me in all of this that she hasn't gone that way. Some days I feel like an idiot for sticking this all out. Like that everyone else would look at go wake up already.
I dunno. At this point you question a lot, and it gets bad when you find you even wonder about that little voice that's always guided you. Yet, I still just can't let go.
Throw on top of this no sex through all of this and I'm going for sainthood. And yes there's temptations admitted on both sides, but its been kept on a friendship level (okie, with some cuddling and other stuff but not so much as a kiss)...I know the question is why the hell are you doing this to yourself....*sigh* but right now I'm still left with a girl I feel truly does fit that for me who is outside on the phone with the other guy and struggling again today with what to do.
Me or him...him or me. Why a choice at all? I know I have a lot to offer. I've led an interesting life, will never grow up, aren't afraid to try or do anything, love adventure, am extremely open minded, etc...
Its odd, I just read a random call for advice on here about a guy that everyone sees as just a friend. I've had similar problems, although mine come in with I don't seem to attract the type of girl I need for me. Ok, yeah I look normal and on first impression I may seem that way too. I need to be professional on what I do for a living. Problem is I know deep down I'm not normal. What appeals to me is different and unique people. I HATE the norm, and yet it seems the only people I meet that really fall for me are those that just want to "settle down"....UGH!. I hate that phrase. LIVE life!
Well if anyone has any advice on my sordid mess besides you're a complete idiot, feel free to jump in.