So yeah, vacation....
Spent a week in Orlando with Anne. Actually nine days staying at Disney in a somewhat secluded room with only three of those days going to the trade show business side of me being there. The whole place was themed to New Orleans and we were in the bayou, with lots of trees and windy paths. This past month for me has been a whirlwind with everything going on but finally I had time and a place to let it go.
Anne and I had our rocky times. I understand more again on where she is and why things are still hard and not totally undecided. Doesn't always help me though, but I did back away from the thought of after this that's it. Yeah, most probably again are gonna say I'm an idiot, but I kept saying as long as things keep moving forward, I want to see this through. I mean hell, we are talking about the rest of our lives possibly...
Just continuing to force that reading into side of me to keep it down. No use in guessing at this point.
Ok, other annoying note. My former college has actually also managed to get into the fucked up life situations. They have now decided to create a program for students wanting to get into the amusement industry that I would have KILLED for when I was there
! Why am I so pissed?? Because I'm getting damn tired of seeing shit handed to others when everything for me seems to be the enormous uphill battle.
So anyways, they show up at the tradeshow with their students...I get the nice cold reception that equated to oh alumni, thats nice...BUT LOOK AT US!! This would be bothering me nearly as much except this is the very program the idiot other guy in this whole mess wants to get into
! No academic qualifications at all and he's getting welcomed with open arms (well there's also connections with his dad and the school...fancy that). Ugh, a lot more I could go on about how fucked up this is but not gonna. Starting to wonder if I should search my past for some gypsy curse or something.
LOL, and I almost forgot. Was gonna go see my family over Thanksgiving but after getting a greeting NOT of we miss you or anything like that, the hell with it. Seriously I got crap because I can't stay through Saturday to take some family photo. Wooonderful when family lets you know you're unwanted
. Oh well....me against the world as always. Bring it on.
Spent a week in Orlando with Anne. Actually nine days staying at Disney in a somewhat secluded room with only three of those days going to the trade show business side of me being there. The whole place was themed to New Orleans and we were in the bayou, with lots of trees and windy paths. This past month for me has been a whirlwind with everything going on but finally I had time and a place to let it go.
Anne and I had our rocky times. I understand more again on where she is and why things are still hard and not totally undecided. Doesn't always help me though, but I did back away from the thought of after this that's it. Yeah, most probably again are gonna say I'm an idiot, but I kept saying as long as things keep moving forward, I want to see this through. I mean hell, we are talking about the rest of our lives possibly...
Just continuing to force that reading into side of me to keep it down. No use in guessing at this point.
Ok, other annoying note. My former college has actually also managed to get into the fucked up life situations. They have now decided to create a program for students wanting to get into the amusement industry that I would have KILLED for when I was there
! Why am I so pissed?? Because I'm getting damn tired of seeing shit handed to others when everything for me seems to be the enormous uphill battle.
So anyways, they show up at the tradeshow with their students...I get the nice cold reception that equated to oh alumni, thats nice...BUT LOOK AT US!! This would be bothering me nearly as much except this is the very program the idiot other guy in this whole mess wants to get into
! No academic qualifications at all and he's getting welcomed with open arms (well there's also connections with his dad and the school...fancy that). Ugh, a lot more I could go on about how fucked up this is but not gonna. Starting to wonder if I should search my past for some gypsy curse or something.
LOL, and I almost forgot. Was gonna go see my family over Thanksgiving but after getting a greeting NOT of we miss you or anything like that, the hell with it. Seriously I got crap because I can't stay through Saturday to take some family photo. Wooonderful when family lets you know you're unwanted
. Oh well....me against the world as always. Bring it on.