Back in Baltimore and ready to move. I got an earlier flight out of Tampa today which means I actually have a night to relax.
*sigh* relax....HAH. Yeah I'm back to pain over the current situation. Its getting to feel like damn decision time....me or him. From everything she has told me (yeah she tells me about him), I just cannot see how it would work, but whatever. Its been 3 months of this. By now you have to have SOMETHING in mind. And dammit I am worth more than this. I've made dreams come true for her...if she's gonna turn her back on that, then I'd rather help make someone else's dreams come true. I'm worth a lot more than this. Most of my friends can't believe how long I've stuck around. I do it because I have a lot of emotion and passion...I'm a deep person that believes in fighting for someone...in giving them the time and space they need too. I don't ever give up when I set my mind to something. And if it was that there's just no feelings for me anymore then fine. Mine don't fade like that, but whatever.
I've got a lot to offer, and I've proved my feelings in all of this plenty. If she's still gonna doubt how I feel after everything, or if she can't see what she does have, then I deserve better.
I don't do games.
*sigh* relax....HAH. Yeah I'm back to pain over the current situation. Its getting to feel like damn decision time....me or him. From everything she has told me (yeah she tells me about him), I just cannot see how it would work, but whatever. Its been 3 months of this. By now you have to have SOMETHING in mind. And dammit I am worth more than this. I've made dreams come true for her...if she's gonna turn her back on that, then I'd rather help make someone else's dreams come true. I'm worth a lot more than this. Most of my friends can't believe how long I've stuck around. I do it because I have a lot of emotion and passion...I'm a deep person that believes in fighting for someone...in giving them the time and space they need too. I don't ever give up when I set my mind to something. And if it was that there's just no feelings for me anymore then fine. Mine don't fade like that, but whatever.
I've got a lot to offer, and I've proved my feelings in all of this plenty. If she's still gonna doubt how I feel after everything, or if she can't see what she does have, then I deserve better.
I don't do games.
that is a seriously shit situation to be in.
i can't exactly hate her for it because ive been in a similar mess but i do understand that it is not your place to allow her to decide your course of action.
if your heart is unhappy when it thinks about her...leave her. move to ann arbor and build anew. but make sure to build you first.