*sigh* a month later and where am I now?? It was a BAD week...one of the worst in a long time. Hmmmm, okie, oddly maybe not. Hit a low spot with Anne after a very low spot in my life. But by the end of the week, we had discovered the misunderstanding that led us there. So back to happy...well okie that one is relative. Also have my apartment set in MI and beyond a WAAAAY beyond busy two weeks ahead, life is moving forward.
So of course I have today. Here's the day when life crashes back down. My friends have gotten sick of the current situation and I know they are just defending me, but it hit me hard. The ups and downs are continuing as Anne and I begin to get to know each other again. That would be fine if not for that other guy who just won't go away and her uncertainty there. Crap.
I keep following that little voice that says stick in here. I got past the first point where some said what are you doing, and I felt I was right....things did look up. But yeah the questions hit again. Are things really moving forward with her? Or am I being a "chump" here? Where do you draw the line?
I always felt that as long as things were moving forward, I was here for the ride. For her and I its early, but not so for this other guy. And ugh, from knowing her, from everything I see it just looks so bad for the two of them to ever try to be together. But he keeps managing to skate out of his fuck ups, and although she keeps saying she is nearing her breaking point, it has yet to come. Oh and of course right now I should be studying for my PE exam in a few days.
It'd be nice to hear from someone that that little voice in my head telling me to keep going is not gonna turn out to be some false hope. So either cluelessness or just going through one of life's trials...well my life tends not to be normal either, so this could just be on track as usual.
So of course I have today. Here's the day when life crashes back down. My friends have gotten sick of the current situation and I know they are just defending me, but it hit me hard. The ups and downs are continuing as Anne and I begin to get to know each other again. That would be fine if not for that other guy who just won't go away and her uncertainty there. Crap.
I keep following that little voice that says stick in here. I got past the first point where some said what are you doing, and I felt I was right....things did look up. But yeah the questions hit again. Are things really moving forward with her? Or am I being a "chump" here? Where do you draw the line?
I always felt that as long as things were moving forward, I was here for the ride. For her and I its early, but not so for this other guy. And ugh, from knowing her, from everything I see it just looks so bad for the two of them to ever try to be together. But he keeps managing to skate out of his fuck ups, and although she keeps saying she is nearing her breaking point, it has yet to come. Oh and of course right now I should be studying for my PE exam in a few days.
It'd be nice to hear from someone that that little voice in my head telling me to keep going is not gonna turn out to be some false hope. So either cluelessness or just going through one of life's trials...well my life tends not to be normal either, so this could just be on track as usual.