All this and more for as little as $4 a month.

There is one constant in the universe and that is change. I was unaware of the far-reaching impact that SG would have on my life when I first signed up for a one month membership. Of course, it started with the girls. I was smitten by the combination of beauty, brains, attitude and interests that many of the SGs possessed. That was why I first joined. Then the boards with their equal parts sardonic wit, intelligence and idiocy got me more intrigued. I continued to sit back and watch the events of this curious new world that I stumbled upon unfold on my computer screen daily. I soon discovered that there were regional groups and that one existed in Seattle. "How far do I want to go with this?" I asked myself. My curiosity proved to be far too great and I soon found myself in the midst of SG Seattle at a bar on a Karaoke night. Everyone was really cool and my social anxiety was soon relieved by friendly conversations, beer and what can get through the double doors. This happened at a particularly low time in my life when I needed to find some people I could relate to. I was definitely searching for something at the time and felt very welcome in the community.

Over the last 3 months, yes it has only been 3 months since I met all of you I have had some great times. I've laughed, drank, sang, drank and been exposed to new things. Like many relationships my one with SG has become a complicated one. It has caused me to feel a broad range of emotions from joy and happiness to pain and sorrow. Because of this I need to take a hiatus and try to sort some things out and hope that other things sort themselves out in the interim. I have met people that I hope to stay in contact and go out for an occasional beer or a movie with and I have met some that have changed and very well may continue to change my life.

I go gray on August 2nd and begin, with this journal to say the first of the goodbyes that this week has in store. I am in the process of letting go of and simultaneously changing many elements in my life at the moment and it is frightening. I have faith (in what I don't know) that the future will be what it is supposed to be. How tightly do you, should you try to hold on? If only I knew, If only I knew. I wish the external world that I inhabit and the internal one of my emotions could be so much more different than they are right now. I hope for the best for everyone...

Goodbye SG.