so its been about a month since my last update and i appologize for my lack of SG commitment. life is just rough right now. and it will continue to be until i gain my student liscense. i'm still fighting to pay my bills while slaving away in a dirty hole that some consider a kitchen. i fucking hate that place. the members, the employees, the job itself... its all super-ultra-mega-lame... they dont give me near enough hours to sustain any kind of lifestyle except for those of the homeless persuasion... blah. i could go on about how much i hate it, but why waste my time. y'all get the point.

and then there's school. this term is tough as fuck. A&P3, Microbiology, Respiratory Care 2, and Clinicals. I'm in a classroom 32hrs/week. its rough to find time for anything else between lectures, labs, clinics, and homework/studying. i can't believe i haven't given up yet...

and even though my plate is stacked high as a mountain, i still have some spirit left in me. i dont know where its coming from... i'm starting to think that it's blind hope for a better future. at least thats the best thing i can come up with.

still single. still lonely. ex g/f is still fuckin with my head and i'm still sitting here, eating up every little bit like candy. i can't tell if i still care about her or if i just like the abuse.

well, i'm at school and class is about to begin, so i better jet. i'll update this post later. theres more to be said.

thanks for keepin me in line, guys. you know who you are